Biggest Fear

You would think that after a few months of peak training I would be loving this tappering business, a maximum of one to two hours training per day, many days with no training at all.  But to be honest Im struggling, first I get a COLD, which has now turned to a chesty cough yay! and I feel like a lazy bum who should be doing more.  No one is getting sleep, but at least I can nod off during the day, poor Liza has to go to work.... a love you honey :) not long now.

This weekend the girls did the Coastal Challenge, 11k run from Milford along the beach and rocks down to Devonport.  I was support crew with little helpers, as I was hanging out with a mates three wonderful kids (2, 5 and 9).  Unfortunately I was a bit crap at the support role, especially since we were at Takapuna Beach waiting for everyone to run past when they called to say they had finished. Buggar!  OK so perhaps we had spent too long at the playground and then playing in the water .... but we had fun :)

My bike with CMs race wheels.

Camp Mother took on The Rev cycle race, and although she may not be happy with her result it was inspiring to me!. It proves that when the chips are down, including multiple wasp stings cos it got trapped down your top, GOODNESS!  a small tanty on the side of the road can do wonders! get you back on the bike and pushing on to the end.  Without doubt I will recall this courage when I too feel like doing a tanty on the side of the road, of which I expect there will likely be many. Thanks to the generosity of CM I have been able to upgrade my wheels, using elite wheels which are almost half the weight of my wheels and almost cost as much as my bike.  I have put on new tyres and new tubes, I hope this will prevent punctures on the day.  I will take the bike for a burn this avo, Im hoping this will make life easier on the ride section.

Two days before we head to Taupo on Wednesday, I get moments of 'total freak out' where I go silent and process internally, this almost sends Liza over the edge as she likes to talk about everything.  My biggest fear ... is despite all the preparation and all the support ..... come race day I wake to something that prevents me from starting or finishing i.e. illness, weather bomb, injury, equipment failure... something out of my control.  Liza has suggested talking about the what if I don't finish ... but to be honest I can't, should I not finish I will be devastated!!!